Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Writing is Healing, even during a Mental Block.

     I love to write.  I don't do it enough.  And I don't mean the type of writing you see on FaceBook or Twitter, or even in an email newsletter for work.  I mean the type of writing that makes you think, that makes you question, that helps to inspire the uninspired.  That's the type of writing I'm talking about.  And sometimes it's hard to do.  Sometimes inspiration is just out of reach.  Sometimes you need to write and get thoughts down until inspiration comes along.  And that is exactly what I'm doing right now.  I am writing until that 'Hallelujah' moment lights up my brain.  I am writing what I know. 

     Writing is very healing.  Writing is a way to communicate with others a message.  Said message can be of hope, despair, similarities and coincidences of situations that need clarity.  It is also quite informative.  It's a way to connect with others, on the physical plane and the not-so-physical plane.  The Universe hears you everytime you have a thought.  And if you put that thought down on paper (or even in a blog!), manifestation of said thought happens rather quickly.  So, what are my thoughts?

     I want my business to grow.  No, instead I am going to think and write: My business is growing.  Because, it is.  Do you know it took me years; I mean, YEARS to believe that I am great at what I do? I've had so many clients tell me that I have "magic hands." My way, or technique, of massage puts them into a state of bliss and they happily, and drowsily, mumble something about my having magic hands as they walk out of the massage room.  I have been massaging for almost 10 years now, and it has taken me just as long to believe it.  Crazy, right? Why do people take a long time to believe the good stuff? We are so quick to believe the negative.  It's sad, really.  And something I have mindfully stopped doing the past couple of months.  I'm tired of making myself believe that I'm not good enough, or not deserving or not worthy of receiving all that I want and need.  Why can't I have it all? Honestly, why not? No one says I can't. There isn't a rule in some made up rulebook with regulations that prohibits my wants and desires.  And the same goes for you.

     Did you read that? I will repeat it: THE SAME GOES FOR YOU!

     People really need to start believing in themselves.  They need to remove the Ego and start living their lives like they're already happy, abundant, wealthy, healthy, in love, etc. because that starts happening once you start doing so.  My life has changed in amazing ways since the end of December.  Of 2014. That's not even that long ago.  There is this shift, and it's not even within myself (energetically, cosmically).  Yes, a lot of it is within myself.  But don't you have to be the change that you want to see in the world? I changed.  I am changing.  I have made myself believe I am healthy, abundant, wealthy beyond measure, happy, eccentric, loving, carefree, relaxed, and any other positive affirmation I can think of.  Why? Because I am.  It's as simple as that, really.  Think it until you believe it! 

     Through my mental block of words, I hope I was able to get through to you.  I hope I have inspired you in some way, shape, or form.  I hope you are able to take something away from this.  If my life has already changed for the better in a short amount of time, what makes you think yours can't? It's all about perspective, people.  Maybe it's time you change yours.

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

November is a Lucky Month!

     November signifies balance, harvest, abundance, spirituality, wisdom, passion, and wish fulfillment.  This is also a great month to really remember and focus on any messages in your dreams.  According to Numerology, 11 (which is the numbered month for November) is all about balance and gaining wisdom.  11 is significant because it's a very lucky number! And since November starts in Scorpio and ends in Sagittarius, you can bet that this month will be the best time to wish for whatever your heart desires.  Your wishes will manifest rapidly if you make them this month.  Scorpio is all about passion and expression, and really diving into your emotions, your inner presence.  Sagittarius is all about passion, knowledge, wisdom, and luck. 

     So, take a moment and really figure out what it is that you truly want.  Write it down.  Seal it away and let the Universe work its magic.  The more genuine and sincere your wishes are, the more abundance you'll receive.  Now is the time to shine and watch your life unfold!

And So It Is!


Tuesday, October 14, 2014

I Prayed to Kali

     I have been going through a life transition over the past several months, but I have also been trying to push it aside.  I can be quite stubborn when I want to be.  When my relationship started crumpling, it affected my whole being.  I went through a bout of depression and still have days when I feel my world cannot get any better.  Thankfully, there has been some resources available to me and I have and am slowly, but surely using them.  Acupuncture has been a godsend, quite honestly.  Without it, I wouldn't even have days where I see sunny skies.  And having the support of friends and family has been helpful.  I've also been meditating, connecting with nature, and praying.  In fact, yesterday I prayed to Kali.

     Kali is a Hindu aspect of Devi, who is the ultimate goddess.  Kali is the goddess of the ending of cycles, the death and transformation energy that lets go of the old and brings in the new.  She destroys what binds us and clears the way for a new journey.  In the book, Archangels & Ascended Masters by Doreen Virtue, it says that she says, "My passions have overwhelmed many who have likened me to a silver storm of fury.  They've called me fickle, temperamental, and wrathful.  Yes, my passion does have an edge, as it is forthrightness unleashed.  I say, 'If you aren't willing to help me, or let me help you, then at least get out of my way.' When you invoke me, get ready for unbridled action.  It may feel like I push you along too fast, and it may feel unsafe.  But I assure you that I'm simply helping you through doors that open so that we can proceed as light-beings.  We have much catching up [with the mission] to do, and dilly-dallying only further thwarts our efforts.  Do not procrastinate, delay, or fear the change that always accompanies action and moving forward.  Do not be afraid of making the wrong decision; rather, fear living in indecision.  I am Kali, single-minded focus mixed with fiery passion and deep caring about many causes."

     She helps with courage, determination, direction, focus, motivation, protection, and tenacity.  I prayed to her to help me release the heartbreak I have been enduring.  I prayed to her to help move me along in a better direction.  And I prayed to her for my transition and transformation to move along in a swift manner.

     If you find you're stuck, whether it's in a relationship or job or family situation, etc., sit down, close your eyes and ask for Kali.  But be sure that you're truly ready for change.  She will make it happen so.

Monday, July 14, 2014

Reigniting passion and love with Isolt

     For the past couple of months my boyfriend and I have been on again, off again.  It does take its toll on both of us, but we confided in each other that we are not done.  The two of us argue a lot, but we hold so much passion between us.  It's one of the things that keep us together; that keep us connected.

     I sat, reflected, and meditated on what I need to work on for today and the rest of this week.  As I sat on the floor, I held the Archangels & Ascended Masters book in my lap.  I placed my left hand on top of it and let my middle finger run along the upper outer edge.  After a moment I felt this pull to stop strumming my finger and opened the book up to page 96: Isolt.

This image is from the Goddess Guidance oracle deck.

     Isolt is the goddess of love and passion in relationships.  She helps enhance sexual satisfaction and offers help in finding a soulmate.  Well, I already know and feel that Joey is a soulmate of mine.  And I feel she made herself known to me today, because Joey and I very recently started connecting again.  There's some things he and I need to work on, both individually and as a unit.  After I read the description of her and what she helps with, I continued to sit on the floor with my eyes closed.  I invited her in and asked for her assistance.  I want her to help Joey and I out.  I want her to help us remind each other of why we love each other so much, and why we cannot let each other go.  I want our passion to be reignited even more than it already is.  I want us to only show love to each other. 

     I know this will take time.  I know this will take a good amount of effort on both of our parts.  I hope that by the weeks end there will be some improvement, though.  I imagine there will be.  :)

Friday, June 6, 2014

A Prayer for a Relationship Breakup

     I have been going through a very hard time lately.  My boyfriend broke up with me last month and I've been looking to spiritual guidance for help in my time of need.  I decided to create a prayer. 

     If you, or someone you know, is going through a similar situation, please call on your angels for support and guidance.

Dear Angels,
                As you know, I have experienced a heartbreak.  The pain is unbearable; I feel like I am crawling out of my own skin and that a part of my soul has been ripped away.
                Please help me in my time of need.  Please lift this heavy burden and help allow my heart and soul to heal.  Show me how to go about my days knowing there is life after love.  Show me that I am worthy and deserving of a new beginning and a new me.  Please show me the lessons learned from this relationship so that I may grow.  And most importantly, please help my soul to open up to whatever the future has in store for me.  Thank you.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Fluidity and Forseti

     I haven't written in here in a while, and it's time to.  A lot of changes have been going on in my life throughout the past year and it's been a bit difficult to just go with the flow.  It all came to a head this past weekend, and now a major shift is occurring.  I don't feel this is a bad thing, but I am interested in seeing where my life ends up.  It's scary, I will admit.  So, yesterday I decided to draw an angelic symbol on my left ankle.  It stands for Fluidity.  In other words, to go with the flow.  Life ebbs and flows and to make change easier, you have to sometimes surrender and just go with it.  And since the left side of the body takes in energy, I decided to place it on my left ankle in hopes that I will be able to just go with the flow of life.  Here's what it looks like:

     And after I did that, I made a little prayer to Forseti.  He is the Norse god of justice, fairness, arbitration, and reconciliation.  He is considered the ultimate peacemaker.  I asked him for help because he assists with resolving arguments, fairness, resolving legal matters (which I don't need, thankfully), peace, protection, and truth issues.  Sometimes you get so wrapped up in your own thoughts and fears, that you can't hear or see what the other person is saying/conveying.  And unfortunately this has happened, and a difficult situation needs resolving.  This morning I woke up feeling less stressed.  I hope this continues throughout the day and the week.  And I hope by weeks end, this situation has resolved itself or is on the mend.  One can only hope.

Monday, April 7, 2014

My Time in Thailand

     My sister, Jill, and I spent about 11 days in northern Thailand, in a city called, Chiang Mai.  The main purpose of our trip was to volunteer at the Elephant Nature Park just outside of Chiang Mai.  There, among 28 other volunteers, we got the opportunity to learn about the park and its inhabitants: the elephants, humans, dogs, cats, and water buffalo.  This park is designed to rescue and rehabilitate abused and injured elephants.  This "working" vacation was just that, but it is extremely memorable and life-changing.  And these are some of my pictures: